Losing my Non Self

I have been stalled as of late. I am in a mental rut and I have not had the energy to meditate lately. I have had some significant life changes that have brought me great worldly happiness but in addition to the temporary happiness I have become spiritually complaisant.

I am so blessed and fortunate in my life but I have to remember that all conditioned things are impermanent, involve suffering and are without a self. I am losing my non self and I am trying to stay mindful of the fact nothing, even the bliss and heavenly state I have been in for the past month is permanent. I have to let the experience be what it is without becoming attached and the only real way to accomplish this is to gain insight through meditation.

This probably doesn't make much sense because I am being so vague. So let me be a little clearer.The new year has already brought financial and personal improvements in my life. The greatest thing is that I am one month away from being engaged and this has made me extremely happy. I have been reborn in a heavenly realm and I am lost in the bliss of this state. It will not last forever but I have to say it is the first time in my life things have been so good. I have to keep things in perspective, I have to understand that conditions come and go.

At any rate I have to get back on the cushion.

Wish me well.